MELODRAMATIC FOOL.NEUROTIC.PSYCHO.
Recently, I posted my Christmas wish list. And tonight, I want to add one more thing on that list…..
A less boring life
Boredom is killing me. I promised myself never to complain ever again. But then, I can’t help but moan about what is going with my life right now. I was NEVER contented (which is bad). I get irritated easily. I hate everything about myself. I’m too conscious with what I eat. I don’t get in touch with my old friends anymore. I’m so lazy. Sometimes I am happy. At times I’m quite and really sad. I am in a period of intense dramatic self-doubt. And with what’s going on with me recently, I am thinking…
–AM I HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS?!-
Yes. You can laugh all your arses out as loud as you can. I feel like I am old, though so IMMATURE.
But weren’t you supposed to feel this at the age of 40? Or when your married long enough to (and has kids) feel like something is wrong about your life? When you wake up and have no idea who you are or what you want? Mid-life crisis doesn’t sound wrong, as far as I’m concerned. Something about it sounds very right.
But then feeling this at my age is totally weird. (WEIRD.WEIRD.WEIRD.)
I couldn’t explain how I’m feeling when I woke up this morning. This is not the first time or even the second time I felt this. Couple of days ago, I feel so energized and motivated and then here I am feeling the other way round. There is something weird about me, (for sure sometimes you feel this too) and worst; I wanted to talk to someone: a PSYCHIATRIST (maybe). I’ve always wanted to see one. To find someone I can talk to about how and why the hell I feel and see things this way. Sometimes I feel like there really is something wrong with me. OMG. Is this something to worry about or what??? Or I am just over reacting?
I need to calm down. :-S
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
And gosh…This post explains how crazy really I am. *Sigh*
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