November10
I am really not liking the way I organized my timetable to fit all the things that I need to do. I am annoyed with how I manage things. And I am absolutely hating the WORKLOADS. In short – I am not happy -
Most people tell me to enjoy my first year in University because when I get to 2nd and worst 3rd year of this course, I will not be able to enjoy much of myself as the workloads will be doubled or even tripled. But I wonder how other Freshers like me are feeling? Are they loving their first year? Are they all stressed out with all the Uni works? Do they attend or missed lectures and tutorials? Are they meeting all their deadlines? Do they like or even love the nightlife? Well…. I asked myself all these questions last night and I don’t even know the answer…=p
I pitty myself for not making the most of this University life thinggy (so far). I am not (yet) 100% motivated. There are a lot of things going on behind my back that I still need to sort out. Even more things ahead of me to be aware at. Everytime I intentionally don’t do Uni work, I just always tell myself “It’s fine, YOU need time”. Worst is, I keep telling that to myself EVERY SINGLE DAY. And now what?? I have all these work piled up on my desk -yet again-. I know that I won’t go anywhere if I don’t motivate myself. I NEED TO FOCUS, FOCUS, FOCUS and I NEED PURE CONCENTRATION, MOTIVATION and ENTHUSIASM.
October1
The first time I saw the word “Tutorial” on my course handbook programme, I lost interest on it. It is somehow not what I want to do and never ever liked doing. Its about: working on groups, doing presentations, asking and aswering questions bla bla bla.
But based from the two (so far) tutorials I’ve been to this week, tutorials are now officially my favorite teaching method for a number of reasons.
First: Working with groups. I am totally not cool with working with others about a certain subject. I’d rather do things on my own, working in my own time and space, not arguing with others on how to work things out, I hate being told what to do etc. I just basically want to help and work with my own ME. But yesterday’s tutorial was really fun. I was in this group consisting of four members including myself and oh boi! I love my groupmates. They are so much fun to work with and I think (and really hope) that I am not going to have any problems whatsoever with them when doing certain tasks.
Second: Presentations. This is what I hate most about learning. Discussing or presenting to an audience of staff/students. It is not totally cool and not the nicest feeling of all to stand infront of a crowd and try and make them understand each of the words coming out of your mouth. Just imagine the feeling of PGMA addressing her SONA (Oh so thats maybe a different situtaion). But what about a singer in a concert or a show; that’s why its no wonder why some of them can totally get humiliated. 
We did a little presentation yesterday, and I must say, it was the best presentation I’ve ever done. Simply because the nerves weren’t actually there. It was just me and the audience. No more. No less.
Today’s tutorial is different from yesterdays’ apart from one thing. FUN.
It was FUN. Everyone inside the room is smiling. Laughing. Chatting with their seatmate like they’ve known each other since they were even born but actually they’ve only met when – today??
We had this task to do (about learning how to use your calculator using STATS mode, which I’ve already done before btw). I was sitting next to this mature student and he hasn’t got a calculator with him and so I have to share mine. He is an old guy (according to him). He used to work in a bank, did accounts before and had an experience on business and that. But he hasn’t got a single clue on what we are actually doing. And so I had to help him. The look on his face everytime he does something right is unexplainable. He was so amazed on how those data entered on the calculator worked out so right. 
(Don’t know why though) Probably because he haven’t done STATS before thats why he is so amazed by himself everytime he gets an answer right or maybe….. I don’t know.
And we made a deal. I am going to help him with STATISTICS (from my experience) and he is going to help me with our ACCOUNTS subject. How cool is that. Uber 
But honestly, I never like STATS. I will only lie to myself if I am going to say I LOVE STATS. I HATE IT. But not more than I hate MECHANICS. 
And now I am off to check my timetable. And I hope that I have loads of tutorials this month. 
, I asked her “what do you mean BHANGRA?!” (OMG. This is going to be a nightmare). It is just because I haven’t been to a bar that play’s BHANGRA music. It’s always Techno and RNB but I prefer the latter. Then I asked her to play a BHANGRA music. Not with so much surprise, I knew that it is more like Indian music type of thing BUT unknown by me, with a mix of RNB beat. I asked her if she could understand the words (She is an Asian-Indian btw) and she said “Kind of, but you don’t have to listen to the lyrics, you just got to dance with the beat. 
